The Truth.. Keep it or Spill it out?

okay,  perhaps most of u already know from my previous post that I’m in love with this girl and for your information, we became couple on the 19th. that was the happiest moment i ever had. we were doing really fine actually, especially when we started this relationship as a friends.

but last night, started with a conversation between him and her childhood friend, i started to think maybe its about time she knows about my past, the things that i fear most, the darkest time i ever had on my own..

I’m pretty sure what I’m about to tell her will shock her and the she look at me will never be the same.. but i want this relationship with her based on the truth n no secrecy. so she can make better judgment about my self, how i was, how i am now, n what will i become. n yes, she shocked, a really hard one! as she keep saying that she had that kind of conversation b4 with her ex.. n then she asked me to go home, i understand she really need some space on her own.

my past? well, its not something I’m proud of, but that is process in my life that i must go through in order so i can become a better person. i regret it, but i won’t lose to it. at least from my point of view, I’ve become much better person for the last month, n I’m still trying to do better. n i don’t denied, despite that i know that i should do something to be a better person, its not until i met u dear that i know what i should do n how i should do it.

back to my love one, i hope she think very clearly why i’m telling her about my past n hopefully she can make better judgement n make decision on what she would do next, whether she would accept me n continue with this relationship, or perhaps she would leave me with nottin’ left for me..

as for me, i hope she would take me as i am now..

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P.S. I Luv U Maya AP